Indecisive in nature...what is that??

Hello Readers,

I hereby confess that I am very indecisive in nature, I never make mind focus in to one thing and that is why I have got in to trouble sometime, I want to do everything and do not want to leave even a minor part of what I like or I wish to do.

The funny part is that when I had a crush in my college time I was thinking for a year whether it is a crush or is it Love!!! and when I concluded that It is Love and expressed my self to her I got the following reply. This is exactly what I have said though I was the most shy person in the college

HE: "Hi Miss A. You know what.. I think I like you very much...
She: " Oh..is it..since when.."
Me being generous..
He: " From last year and half"
She: " Then why did not you told me in the beginning"
He: "I was just thinking whether it is crush or Love"
She: " It took one and a half year for you to decide..?"
He: " Yes..but now I am sure"
she: " Look Mr. Blogboy I know you are a very nice person, very shy, Topper of the college but I can not marry outside my caste and I am already having a boyfriend, but we can be friends"
He: " Oh..ok..I think I took more time.Never mind..and yes we can be friends"
She: "Do not misunderstand me please"
He: " No no Its really OK.."

After talking for more half an hour she left and I was in Barista for another 2 hour or so all alone and thinking now what.. Will I be able to love some one again in my life.......
So many unanswered questions in mind and I was trying to get answers from Barista's coffee cup....

After that incident the whole college came to know and at the last year's farewell party I was sitting at the back as usual and doing some mischief and suddenly my name was announced for some game on the stage. I went because there were around 200 people including Professors. Then there was an announcement of that girl Miss A. she too came on the stage and the game was something called ask questions and act..I can not remember the whole thing but it was similar to dare and truth.

They told me to propose Miss A in front of all.

I was scared at first and then I proposed her saying "I hope this time I am not late..I love you A"

As of now I do not know exactly where is she..I talked to her over the phone six months back..

I still wear my watch on my right hand as she was wearing on her right hand. (This is the secret I have never told any one asking me why I am wearing watch on my right hand ) just to remember her.

All is fine...

"My Sweetheart"

So often when I am embracing you,
It seems that you exist in this world only because of me
and I exist because of you.
It's not easy to wander in this world

and
not lose one's way,
but the greatest happiness of all is in
giving joy to one's beloved.

And if the king can have his throne,
and if the bird can have his Spring nest,

and God can have his heaven,then I, my sweetheart,
I can have you!

- Jonathan Townsend -


Good Bye and Take Care!!!!